goodbye santa, hello new year!

it's 31st of december! can't feel it yah? time flies so fast and its the end of the year already. so many things happened to each and everyone of us here and we all have own story to tell. hearby, i wanna thank you for people around the world for participate this lives of ours in this world to make this world a more interesting place to live whether it is bad or good. see, i'm talking nonsense again. so basically this updating blog thingy is not a must do or compulsory tasks to do anymore. for me, it's like a diary to me. i can be like updating whatever i want. like nobody cares about it right? so what are purposes of creating a blog? to be able to learn and increase our knowledge on ICT or how to get creative on social network? :) anyway. i hope to obtain full mark on this assignment cos i do it with all my sincerity and i'm satisfied with the blog's design and etc. :)
so let me talk about my 2013's life. let me sum up my life. starting the year of 2013, i spent the first 3 months in plkn which is the national service community here at sungai rait miri. it was my first experience of leavin my family and live on my own. it was quite fun back when i spent my life there. meeting new friends and etc. homesick is a must even though i'm not really far from my family. after spending not exactly 3 months there, i went back and became a big boss at home. no jobs to do just doin my life as a housewife. haha. and then i got this offer to interview at kuching for foundation in TESL. which is teaching in English blablabla. i can't remember the full name of the course at Shah Alam Selangor if i'm not mistaken. but then too bad, takda rezeki. even though me and my mom spent like almost 2k for the trips and foods and etc. it's not really worth it cos i'm not selected. i've been wanting to be an English teacher since i'm in love with the subject. but its okay. friends and family always there to support me.
after like few months of waiting and being lazy, finally i got an offered in diploma in animal and health production in University Putra Malaysia Kampus Bintulu. yeayyy~ i was happy and sad at the same time. happy because i got smthing to do at last and sad because i have to leave my family. so far my life at umpkb was quite interesting and i can get to know more interesting friends whether its good or bad. also i get the chance to involve myself in rugby and gym and etc.
and then here's me again typing here alone in this house. it's raining out there and while that's happening right now, i'm here typing and eating snacks and keep thinking about food. haha. kidding.

so guise, people, hey ho! Sometimes people forget how much 365 days actually brings to their lives. However, this is the right moment to reflect and to hope for 365 more wonderful days! Happy New Years! forget about all those bad shits that's goin thru your past life. it's over and things will get better and you're gonna be alright. have faith in God and Trust Him. Nothings get better when u didnt approach Him first. have fun! with lots of love. 

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it's my new hairstyle for this upcoming 2014. XD that's all from me. with lots of love. XOXOXOXO! 

keeee rrissss massss ( CHRISTMAS)

song of the day. travie mccoy ft jason mraz- rough water. so, i've changed my ringtone to this song again! haha. actually i'v been searching this song since gawai but i only manage to found it this morning randomly. this song always playing at the radio and i keep asking people around me about this song. so far this song really catches my soul. as i've been thru at my worst this christmas. guess that this is the tough christmas i've ever been through and u don't even wanna know about it. macam2 haha.
so lately, i've been seeing the men that i love in the past all have their loved one already in their arms. haha and then there's this boy that i left in the first place i keep sawing around christmas and i can guarantee that he still hates me. but anyway, i still hope that he can still forgive me. this few mornings when i woke up, i always have this sadness and guilty in me that i'm trying to get rid of. guess that i shouldn't be in my hometown cause staying in my hometown makes me think alot and while i'm at my campus there in bintulu, at least i got stuff to do and friends that will always keep cheering me up. here, i always stay at home alone during the bright day. there's been alot of shits that i've been thru and everyone has their own shits to deal with. some are worse and some are not. and i don't know what i'm saying. haha.
so christmas! during christmas' eve, i went to have some breakfast at a chinese restaurant called lao yang, and so far, i still prefer the dim sum at grand palace. heheh

 this is the mango pudding and it looks like ostrich's egg right? haha

here are some pictures during christmas. but i didn't took so many of the pictures that day cos i was too lazy. haha. 

and then i manage to cut my front hair yesterday into bangs and seriously i'm not satisfied with it :( 

and here it is. looks weird right but i still manage to upload it to embarrassed myself. muahaha

anyway guise, have a great holiday and happy new year and be happy all the time cos live is too short to be unhappy. 

with lots of love. XOXOXO

We're getting there!

hello fellas! ceyy. sooo, like usual, the song of the day? it's my all time fav rapper, eminem! his song featuring rihanna monster. :) so i've been playing this song on repeat since this morning. and decided to set this song as my ringtone. :D as u can tell, i'm the kind of person that's always changing my ringtone. heheh.
it's been like few days i abandoned my blog and didn't keep it updated. i've been busy man, like really busy. well, busy of what? what kind of busy? well, let me give some of the examples, i've been busy with movies, sleeping, laziness, foods, happiness, social network, and etc. u don't wanna know. haha
so, i just got back from bintulu for the christmas' holiday season. well, only for one week. have to go back to bintulu on the 30th cos i'm going to beach party with my fella friends at similajau bintulu to have some fun on new year's eve. so, it's gonna be my first time spending the new year with my friends. wish me all the best to enjoy myself. ahaha.
when i got home last saturday,  i saw everything has changed around the house. the couches, the furniture, like everything has turned into some magical palace or what. but i was quite so satisfied with it and i enjoyed it very much as much as i could. heheh.
and oh oh i received my early christmas' present from haziq the other day before he's going to korea for a vacation with his family. it's a minion and he also asked me to use his watch just in case i miss him. ahaha so, i wish u guys a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! stay tuned. and there's lot more to be updated after christmas and new year. woots~
with lots of love. XOXOXO

Merry Christmas!

Busy lah sangat. watlek watpeace.

So.... how's been everyone doing? song of the day since last week is gimmex3 by beenie man. yeah, my friends, judith and casse has been really obsessed with this song as i can see especially Judith the kid. the prettiest angel in dkhp umpkb she said herself as i proclaimed. haha. XD this song is kind of energetic, clubbing type of song, so for those who's interested u can download this song for yourself. no matter where u go, just listen or play this song whenever u are and people will thought that you're weird. but nope you're not weird cos my motto is simple, which is stay weird as weird as u can be cos you're not reminded to be normal.
So, what's been up lately? i haven't update my blog since last last Friday i guess. quite busy with the christmas' parade thingy, the tiredness i felt lately because of assignments, videos, and exams that just finished just now. 
the exam haa, all i can say is, i just leave it all to God. i've done my best and hope for the best.
oh yes, i wanna share about what happened last Saturday. i woke up early. like it's not normal for me to woke up so early like that but for the sake of goin out with the most handsome lecturer in upmkb, which is my english lecturer, Sir Peter Clarence, i have to wake up early and hang out with him and my two monkeys, Judith and Cassee. So, the first place we headed to is this stall, which serves the most delicious laksa in Bintulu.

look at the prawns look at the prawns! i can have it like 5 bowls of laksa filled with prawns. told ya imma seafood lover. XD

 after chit chatting and whatsoever, we headed to tanjung batu and just rest our mind kononnya katakan. haha. we thought we saw sharks at the seashore because we saw a big fin just suddenly appeared from the middle of nowhere like just boom! just appeared like that. and we thought it was a sharks then we suspect it's a dolphin but who cares anyway right? XD

then we went back and took some long nap till the afternoon. 

later that night, i went to the christmas' parade with Haziq and Mas and her partner. 

here are some pictures of the night. 

 it's the arab's dish and im not really enjoyed my dinner that night because of stomachache. but the food was dangerously awesome. ahaha

that's all for that day and today. with lots of love. XOXO

maturity and future plan

I don't know why I'm still up this late like it's 12.23am already and still I manage to update my blog? well, maybe just maybe, i get used to it or just addicted to it? nahh. what a nasty word to use. haha.
oh well, before this i was quite menyampah and hate to attend "bakti siswa" class for my curricular activity. but then don't know why i was enjoyed with the activity i'm having just now during the baksis' class. why? well, it was because part of the activities made me realized the importance your life as a student in college or university. yerrdehh. hahaha.
one of the activities being held was that, the lecturers want us to list down what are our plans in the next 1 year, 5 years, 10 years and 20 years to come? only then i realized that i haven't even have any plans for the future yet. i was just go with the flow. like graduated from high school and get good results and go to college and then plan to get a good job in the future if i can manage to achieve that. that's all. i didn't come to the point of to think alot more than that cause my motto is quite simple. get a good life in the future. but i didn't thought about what are the ways that'll make or help me to reach that destination in the future.
up to this point, i realized that i'm quite busy thinking about the love life or the entertainment to keep me happy all the time. i always do what the f*** that makes me happy cause i have more freedom here in college's life. i enjoy with my friends when i wanted to. but that doesn't mean that i neglected my studies here. it's just that i still haven't quite understand what are the purposes that i'm right here right now. all i thought about in the past about the purposes in life is all about being a good person and money. we need money for everything. need money for college in order to obtain certain certificates that'll qualified us to get the jobs that suitable for us to earn money again. see? that's the life cycle. people around the world suffered because of money. money can cause everything. but when we human become the master of money, it's okay. but don't be the slave of the money. hahaha. i feel stupid saying all those things.
see, the point is that. it's time to get serious for our own future. plan for now. it's not wrong that we do whatever that makes us happy like love life or some entertainments. we'll get to know more and more people around us and each and everyone of us has our own unique. what am i saying? oh gosh. haha. from my point of view, we always fond of the superiority of others such as the beauty or the talents they have. but what makes a love life more interesting is that when u can accept the weakness of his or her and still love em'. why am i so jiwang? hahaha. idk. well, that's all from me. bahahahaha. i don't even know what am i talking about, it's all mixed up together. 
with lots of love. xoxoxo

here are some pictures of the day after recording video for oral interaction skills of english! XD

 it's too dark there. :L

 ohh look! i got red hair! naaahh, just an edited picture of my selfie. bahaha. :*

thanks for reading my craps! hahaha XD

11.12.13 (special date)

Again, i must begin my blog with my fav song of the day. soooooo, this song called Alive by Krewella is such an addictive song to listen. Actually i've known this song for a while already but yeah who knows it just came to my mind so specially since this morning. bahaha. plssss listen to this song if you're the kind of a hyperactive person yeah? just kidding.
Look at the date look at the date today! pffttttt i don't have to be so like ya know the kind of person who's always go with the trend or flow. what am i saying? but i can't deny the fact that the date today is fact quite awesome! i bet some of the romantic kind of person surely has their feet on the ground to propose their lover already right? Good luck! bahahaha. orrrr those who get married today, i wanna wish the new brides and the grooms around the world congratulations! even though i wish i was the one who got married too. hahaha kidding. 
So what's happening today? basically i just doing my daily routines like usual. get up from my comfy bed and get ready to class. thank God i only have a class for today. after taking a nap, i ended up update my blog. since, there are nothing to do. and oh ohh, i'm going to have my confession for the first time in St Anthony Church later here in Bintulu. so, wish me emmmm, luck? noo, not luck. wish me to have a calm heart later when i'm doing my confession. hehe.
the pictures of the day on this special date. 11.12.13

oh yeahh, good luck for those who'll be proposing their lover tonight. :) :* xoxoxoxo

Surely, One day. I'll walk down the aisle with my dad at the church. hehe :) 

 angan2 jak lebih. haha

 what a creative picture. :)

 and oh, this is Oliver Sykes. Please be mine. I just hope that u appear in front of my door and propose me. bahahaha.

That's all. with lots of love. XOXOXO

I got the magic in me

I got the magic in me, everytime I touch the tracks it turns into gold~ oh heyy.
Nowadays, I love hearing old songs I used to love. They're like memories you can always go back to.
Like the first sentence of lyrics I typed. It's called I got the magic in me by B.O.B ft Rivers Cuomo. I was influenced by the the movie called Pitch Perfect. bahaha. Today, ughhh. class from 8 am till 12 noon. 4 hours straight, yeah i know there are some other students that are worse than us. but, sokay. let's get to the point. at least i got to take my long nap in the afternoon. and ohh, i miss my parents so much. when i woke up after taking a long nap, i just feel like my spirit wasn't there anymore. everything seems not right. then my friends came and bring me to the gym to do some fitness after 1 week of relaxing. satisfied with the workout but after that i had to rush back to the hostel and take a shower before class. everything seems so rush plus i haven't even gain my happy mood back. who cares anyway right? Haziq even so generously lovingly offered me porridge for dinner but i just rejected like that just because i was unhappy with my feelings I'm having. sorry babe. :( I hate that feeling. The feeling when you're sad and you have no idea why, but you just are.

But then, during physic's class, my friend showed me this picture. I was like, I don't know whether I'm still alive or not that time. Don't u like love it to death when u saw some unexpected artist was actually holding a newborn baby. it's not just a newborn baby.

cute nak mampus kan. bahaha. haihhh *melting

 anddd this is during ICT's class. Ain Adlina, me and Judith. :)

 Cause smiling properly is too mainstream.

 So, I decided to get nerdy today for class. :)

That's all for today. With lots of love. XOXOXO

Sorry

so basically, i am just sitting down in front of my study table with only this christmas' light shinning dimly. well, i love this kind of dim light it's like you are in your own world, especially when you're alone in the room. being alone most of the time makes u think alot. like yeah, alot. no one will ever understand your own kind of loneliness. being alone doesn't just mean that you're really alone like no one cares about you. think of ur parents first. they care about you. hihi. when u just sit alone in the corner and like being frustrated and etc. no, that kind of alone its not what i mean. so, the point is, u just want to have sometime alone and think about stuff. 

so yes, right now, i'm alone in the room. it's 6.50 p.m and this song "sorry" sang by Kellin Quinn and his band from Sleeping with Sirens just came into my mind. those lyrics meant so much to me.  i just want to write all those lyrics down on a piece of paper and send it to someone like for no reason. whether he/she is my lover or someone i'm really fond of or not. just like wanna apologizing through this simple and deep words that sang perfectly. 

and it goes like this. babe, I've been thinking lately about you and me, and all the questions left unanswered. how could it be. and i hope u know u never left my head. and if i ever let u down, I'm sorry. i see you around here lately. you smile brighter that you should. and me, i've been so lonely. i'm glad that u're doing good. cause i can't forget the way it used to be. and if i ever let u down, i'm sorry. now.. i can't let u go and u know that u can take all of me, i swear i will be better than before. now i can't let u go, i'm sorry for the things that i've done. things i've done. i'm sorry for the man i was and how i treated you. 


so the lyrics is basically like a boy/man apologizing to his ex lover and want her back. for me it's so deep and u should really listen to this song when you're thinking about someone u have loved in the past. it's not a guilty thing to feel cause we're all humans and we have feelings. and yeah. i'm not good at explaining things but when i want to, i'll try my very best to do. who's gonna read this blog very deeply and inspired each and every words i typed? i hope for a someone. *evil witch laugh. hahaha

it's monday. and when i type this, this today's monday is about to an end. it's only less than 5 hours to go. it's like a countdown right. bahaha. here are some pictures to conclude all of the journal i've told. *evil shy laugh hihihi

and this is Kellin Quinn! the vocalist of Sleeping with Sirens. look at him. bahaha. that's all. with lots of love. XOXOXO

Sunday.

Sunday. i went to St. Anthony church here in Bintulu just like the other Sunday. i don't know what makes me so tired that Sunday. mostly i just spend my whole day sleeping in the room. bahaha. ah yess, that sunday i just had a really amazing breakfast at Bueans, Bintulu, which located just beside ParkCity mall. it serves many kind cuisines of delicious food such as philipines, korean and japan. but, i ended up just ordering this. i can't recall what's the special name for this deep fried squid. p/s, i'm a seafood lover!

it doesn't just looked nice but the taste was like dangerously delicious. haha

that's all. stay tuned. With lots of love. xoxoxoxo

Japanese Festival in UPM, Kampus Bintulu.

So, rise and shine lovelies! Saturday, it's also Japanese Festival in Upmkb. As early as 8.30am, i've already am waiting for my friends to go to the Dewan Seri Kenyalang for the opening ceremony of Japanese Festival.

It's Owen from DPI, Izzatul, Siti Ain, Fred, Malik and Judith from DKHP while dancing for the Japanese Festival. :)

That's all from me. Lots of love. xoxoxox

T.G.I.F

Hello lovelies. So, it's Friday and ladang day. basically what makes me a happy girl that day is that it doesn't involve any physical activities such as clearing out grasses and etc. what do we do is just listening to some lecturer explaining some facts on machinery thingy and excavators and etc. 

look! it's Malik from KL gangster and Arut. hahaha. kidding. XD 

 it's me and my friend's elmo. which i adored very very super muchh. please don't mind with my special cap bought by Haziq. bahaha. XD

 And here it is. not more than a half of DKHP-ians. 

with lots of love. xoxoxoxo

THURSDAY, 5TH OF DECEMBER 2013

THURSDAY. THE DAY BEFORE FRIDAY. BAHAHAHA *EVIL LAUGH. THIS SONG, DEMI LAVATO-LET IT GO, KEEP PLAYING ON MY MIND. QUITE A FEMININE SONG FOR ME. ANYWAY. THIS MORNING, I CAN'T GET MY ASS  OF FROM MY BED THIS MORNING CAUSE I SLEPT LATE THE NIGHT BEFORE. PROBABLY ONLY SLEPT FOR LIKE 4 HOURS CAUSE BUSY OF WATCHING THAI HORROR FILM MOVIE, CALLED, SHUTTER. IT'S ABOUT A..... I WON'T TELL YOU. GO FIND YOURSELF. DOWNLOAD IT, RENT IT, I DON'T CARE. HAHA. 

SO, THIS MORNING, I REALLY REALLY WAS FORCING MYSELF LIKE REALLY, ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW. IT WAS SO TEMPTED TO SEE MY BED. MY BED, MY BF, MY HUSBAND, CAUSE I SLEEP WITH IT EVERY SINGLE DAY EVERY DAMN TIME, MOMENTS, HE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. WOOTS~ WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT. 

OH YEAHH, I HAVE TO GET UP, AND BATH AND MAKE UP, (KIDDING) TO GO FOR PHYSICS' LAB. FOR 3 HOURS. AND....... IT'S RAINING. RAINING! IT'S A VERY DAMN GOOD TIME FOR SLEEPING OKAY. 

HELL YEAH, AIN, INA AND I, TAKING SELFIES IN THE LAB WHILE DOIN THE GRAPH. (LAH SGT) WE ENDED UP TAKING SELFIES. CAUSE WE JUST BELIEVE THAT TAKING SELFIES WOULD TAKE THE STRESS AWAY. HAHA, KIDDING.

 SO THE BOY/MAN, ON MY LEFT SIDE, IS MALIK. YES, MALIK FROM KL GANGSTER. HAHAHA. KIDDING. HE SEEMS SO STRESS RIGHT? YES HE IS. PROBABLY MISSING SOMEONE AT THE SAME TIME. BAHAHA. 3 HELAI RMBUT DIA GUGUR OKAY WHILE DOIN THE GRAPH AND SOME SORT OF ASS EQUATIONS. STRESS GILA. HAHA

 AND THEN, TO BE CONTINUED.......

SO, THAT'S ALL. WITH LOTS OF LOVE. XOXOXO