Sorry

so basically, i am just sitting down in front of my study table with only this christmas' light shinning dimly. well, i love this kind of dim light it's like you are in your own world, especially when you're alone in the room. being alone most of the time makes u think alot. like yeah, alot. no one will ever understand your own kind of loneliness. being alone doesn't just mean that you're really alone like no one cares about you. think of ur parents first. they care about you. hihi. when u just sit alone in the corner and like being frustrated and etc. no, that kind of alone its not what i mean. so, the point is, u just want to have sometime alone and think about stuff. 

so yes, right now, i'm alone in the room. it's 6.50 p.m and this song "sorry" sang by Kellin Quinn and his band from Sleeping with Sirens just came into my mind. those lyrics meant so much to me.  i just want to write all those lyrics down on a piece of paper and send it to someone like for no reason. whether he/she is my lover or someone i'm really fond of or not. just like wanna apologizing through this simple and deep words that sang perfectly. 

and it goes like this. babe, I've been thinking lately about you and me, and all the questions left unanswered. how could it be. and i hope u know u never left my head. and if i ever let u down, I'm sorry. i see you around here lately. you smile brighter that you should. and me, i've been so lonely. i'm glad that u're doing good. cause i can't forget the way it used to be. and if i ever let u down, i'm sorry. now.. i can't let u go and u know that u can take all of me, i swear i will be better than before. now i can't let u go, i'm sorry for the things that i've done. things i've done. i'm sorry for the man i was and how i treated you. 


so the lyrics is basically like a boy/man apologizing to his ex lover and want her back. for me it's so deep and u should really listen to this song when you're thinking about someone u have loved in the past. it's not a guilty thing to feel cause we're all humans and we have feelings. and yeah. i'm not good at explaining things but when i want to, i'll try my very best to do. who's gonna read this blog very deeply and inspired each and every words i typed? i hope for a someone. *evil witch laugh. hahaha

it's monday. and when i type this, this today's monday is about to an end. it's only less than 5 hours to go. it's like a countdown right. bahaha. here are some pictures to conclude all of the journal i've told. *evil shy laugh hihihi

and this is Kellin Quinn! the vocalist of Sleeping with Sirens. look at him. bahaha. that's all. with lots of love. XOXOXO